I realize that this year I am not really productive in writing (?) I think I am stuck with the coass life of routine then when I have free time I kinda lost my self in unproductive day which I am being lazy the whole day and do nothing except sleep and youtube-ing. Recently I have an enormous urge to travel. As I only have limited amount of free days besides horrendous nightmare hospital shift that cost you a whole day with just doing vital sign checking over the patient, so watching travel vlog would be a medicine for me I guess (?) I really enjoy watching battle trip in KBS World lately where there are 2 travel planner group that go to different cities and countries and there are 100 judges who would vote which one is the best itinerary that drive them to visit that country and follow their itinerary. It's so much fun knowing that there are so many things out there in this world that we could actually do. So much food, stuff to do and breathtaking landscapes and activ...
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Awal mengikuti KKN saya sebenarnya agak kurang tertarik dan ogah-ogahan karena bertepatan dengan KKN tersebut sebenarnya saya ada acara lain yang sangat sayang untuk dilewatkan terlebih saya dipercayai mengurus acara tersebut. Namun setelah jadwal KKN keluar tanggalnya dan penempatannya saya pun akhirnya pasrah saja karena saya kedapatan di Jepara ujung yang jarak tempuh darat nya dari Semarang jauh sekali hingga 4 jam, apalagi bila dihitung dari Jakarta tempat asal saya dan tempat diadakan acara tersebut. Terlebih lagi saya dilarang orang tua untuk naik motor sejauh itu dan saya awalnya khawatir dan pusing bagaimana saya bisa ke sana karena katanya kalo bawa mobil nanti warganaya minta macem2 lah dan tetep butuh naik motor lah. Alhamdulilah teman saya ada yang bawa mobil jadi saya tidak perlu khawatir dan dapat meyakinkan orang tua untuk berangkat KKN ke sana. Terlebih lagi, setelah saya melakukan riset mengenai daerah tempat sa...
Kotatsu: Kopi atau Susu K: "Menurut Mas, ya, lebih enak mana. Lampu merah yang ada penghitung mundurnya. Atau yang tidak? B: "Hmm.. Dengan penghitung mundur. Supaya sambil menunggu, bisa melakukan hal yang lain. Kalau waktunya sudah dekat, bisa bersiap dan bergegas." Kalau kau? K: "Tanpa penghitung mundur. Menunggu jadi seru saat kita tak tahu kapan akan berakhir. Kita akan menghargai setiap detik penantian." B: "Masa?" K: " Iya. Nilai sesuatu lebih berharga saat kita belum memilikinya. Atau, sudah tak memilikinya lagi." B: "Kan, lebih enak kalau tahu semua kenyataan. Apa adanya," K: "Kadang tak tahu, lebih baik dari tau. Lebih baik daripada tau sesuatu tapi tak jujur. Atau tau setengah-setengah, tapi ujungnya kita salah menduga. Atau yang jujur, tapi terlalu pahit." B: "Saya menyimak" K: " Allah itu Mahacanggih. Nggak semua hal dikasih tau ke kita. Karena kita belum siap tau kenyataannya...
There's a lot of things going on lately that force me to think and think and think and somehow it also make me more sensitive for some reason, like it's hard to control my emotion. Small silly mistakes could made me irritable and that make me felt like I'm the bad guy over here because I always feel like people forgotten me or left me out. It was initially started with my birthday. I know that I'm not actually such a romantic friend who would always be the initiator to held a surprise party or giving a present when my friend have a birthday, I'm just close enough to someone who always tried to remember hardly my friends birthday date (because I'm not actually the type of person who would make such a fuss on party) but I think just a sincere wishes through social media or if I met them in person if I knew that day is their birthday is enough to warm their heart. (At least for me, that just the least thing I want from my closest friend, just to wish me a v...
in·se·cure ˌinsəˈkyo͝or/ adjective 1 . (of a person) not confident or assured; uncertain and anxious. "a top model who is notoriously insecure about her looks" synonyms: unconfident , uncertain , unsure , doubtful , hesitant , self-conscious , unassertive , diffident , unforthcoming , shy , timid , retiring , timorous , inhibited , introverted ; More 2 . (of a thing) not firm or set; unsafe. If I could describe my feeling in a word now, that could be it, to sum up all of my feeling of "anxiousness". For some reason, lately I felt like I've been left behind in term of anything you may say, education, career, finance, love life, or else, merely I just worried about my future prospect. The reason that trigger me to lead so is that lots of graduation picture in my time line, I chat with my old friends over that issue just to say "Congraduat...