Whimsical Journey of My Life

Kotatsu: Kopi atau Susu K: "Menurut Mas, ya, lebih enak mana. Lampu merah yang ada penghitung mundurnya. Atau yang tidak? B: "Hmm.. Dengan penghitung mundur. Supaya sambil menunggu, bisa melakukan hal yang lain. Kalau waktunya sudah dekat, bisa bersiap dan bergegas." Kalau kau? K: "Tanpa penghitung mundur. Menunggu jadi seru saat kita tak tahu kapan akan berakhir. Kita akan menghargai setiap detik penantian." B: "Masa?" K: " Iya. Nilai sesuatu lebih berharga saat kita belum memilikinya. Atau, sudah tak memilikinya lagi." B: "Kan, lebih enak kalau tahu semua kenyataan. Apa adanya," K: "Kadang tak tahu, lebih baik dari tau. Lebih baik daripada tau sesuatu tapi tak jujur. Atau tau setengah-setengah, tapi ujungnya kita salah menduga. Atau yang jujur, tapi terlalu pahit." B: "Saya menyimak" K: " Allah itu Mahacanggih. Nggak semua hal dikasih tau ke kita. Karena kita belum siap tau kenyataannya...

There's a lot of things going on lately that force me to think and think and think and somehow it also make me more sensitive for some reason, like it's hard to control my emotion. Small silly mistakes could made me irritable and that make me felt like I'm the bad guy over here because I always feel like people forgotten me or left me out. It was initially started with my birthday.  I know that I'm not actually such a romantic friend who would always be the initiator to held a surprise party or giving a present when my friend have a birthday, I'm just close enough to someone who always tried to remember hardly my friends birthday date (because I'm not actually the type of person who would make such a fuss on party) but I think just a sincere wishes through social media or if I met them in person if I knew that day is their birthday is enough to warm their heart. (At least for me, that just the least thing I want from my closest friend, just to wish me a v...

in·se·cure ˌinsəˈkyo͝or/ adjective 1 . (of a person) not confident or assured; uncertain and anxious. "a top model who is notoriously insecure about her looks" synonyms: unconfident ,  uncertain ,  unsure ,  doubtful ,  hesitant ,  self-conscious , unassertive ,  diffident ,  unforthcoming ,  shy ,  timid ,  retiring ,  timorous , inhibited ,  introverted ;  More 2 . (of a thing) not firm or set; unsafe. If I could describe my feeling in a word now, that could be it, to sum up all of my feeling of "anxiousness". For some reason, lately I felt like I've been left behind in term of anything you may say, education, career, finance, love life, or else, merely I just worried about my future prospect. The reason that trigger me to lead so is that lots of graduation picture in my time line, I chat with my old friends over that issue just to say "Congraduat...

Why does everything have to be crumbling apart after 5 years? Is this just the right time? Would it be my turning point of life? I have no idea how should I carry out this problem, but it just that I always think positively that Allah may be really loved me and this how the almighty want to give me a test so that I can go on to the next level of life.  Suddenly after a really nightmare thought beginning in this year that it turned out to be eventually happened, the thing that I still have some worries deep down inside of me and so do my family. And we should be ready whatever the consequences are. We never know what the mystery of tomorrow will bring us. Well I just merely too sensitive to be predicting all ever to be happened, and it is happening. My suspicion turns out to be all come true and that's make me have a goosebumps why all of my thoughts somehow could turn into reality.  A very great lesson that I learned though, each person would have their own obstac...

well, dari sekian juta pemuda-pemudi Indonesia generasi 90an yang tumbuh dengan cerita cinta dari bangkitnya perfilman Indonesia yang diawali dengan film nge hits era itu yaitu "Ada Apa dengan Cinta" atau yang akrab kita singkat AADC, entah gw juga ga ngerti kenapa gw bisa jadi salah satu yang kena dampaknya. Seketika lagunya booming lagi, dan cuplikan-cuplikan filmnya muncul di ingatan bahkan dialognya juga keingetan. Di radio, di media sosial, youtube, instagram, what else name it deh. Sukses banget emang media sosial yang satu itu munculin lagi film ini yang endingnya emang sempet nge gantung dulu dan ga happy ending like most kinda fairy tale movies. Entah karena efek hormonal gw yang memang mendukung gw yg jadi lebih sensitif dan rentan buat jadi galau, tapi entah kenapa timing nya pas banget sama kehidupan gw. Sejujurnya emang klo dipikir2 gw emg suka terlalu kebawa film gitu tapi ini bukan drama yang gw bikin2 dan kait2in gitu. It just really happened similar to my st...

Mc 14395 Rc, Mt Ungaran 2050 mdpl I never imagined that in my wildest dream to be actually part of the mountain climber organisation. Well when I watched "Gie" movie I had a thought that would be interesting to join Mapala (Mahasiswa Pencinta Alam) and after joining Emergency Fair and Festival I also want to be one of the medical rescue team (Tim Bantuan Medis/TBM) as well because that just always been my passion since the beginning. I like to be involved in some kind of activities that concern to improve  skills and that's why I still stuck for another year in Diklat (Pendidikan dan Pelatihan) though.  Well that kind of simple thought which I didn't actually intend to be implement it just happened anyway. After Kembak I decided to join Maladica Undip which basically is the nature lover organisation but have division in TBM as well. And voila I did everything it takes to get that official number and being part of the member. Climbing to the mountain is ...

Gorgeous women do not go to Medical School -House I recently mentioned by my high school biology teacher concerning my facebook status of one of my biosquad's friend. Coincidentally I currently watching House MD episodes on DVD and still seeking which one is the best episodes to watch together on FEMUR of AMSA. Well anyway my friend said that he wholeheartedly disagree with that statement but somehow I actually agree with that. It's actually not the gorgeous women go into medschool in the first place are wrong but the point of somehow getting into medschool make you feel not gorgeous anymore. Duh what am I talking about, I don't even understand. But the point of what I am trying to make is actually I feel really lame in here somehow, instead of knowing lots of things going around outside I am stuck memorizing microscopic creatures that might infect you like bacteria or parasites that not even clear to distinguish and some of it may not even pathogenic and that kinda...

1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return. But what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel. 2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go. 3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had. 4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. 5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. 6. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth, even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem brigh...