Whimsical Journey of My Life

#1: Who am I?  I am your constant companion. I am your greatest helper or heaviest burden. I will push you onward or drag you down to failure. I am completely at your command. Half the things you do you might just as  well turn over to me and I will be able to do  them quickly and correctly. I am easily managed--you must merely be firm with me. Show me exactly how you  want something done and after a few lessons  I will do it automatically. I am the  servant of all great individuals and, alas, of  all failures, as well. Those who are great I have made great. Those who are failures, I have made failures. I am not a machine, though I work with all the precision of a machine plus the intelligence of a human. You may run me for a profit or run me for ruin--it makes no difference to me. Take me, train me, be firm with me,  and I will place the world at your feet. Be easy with me and I will destroy you. Who am I? I am habit #2: Man in the Mirr...

-- written by Max Ehrmann in the 1920s -- Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love, ...

Well I don't know why I felt so depressed on last April. I felt homesick a lot, lonely, don't feel like doing anything (it's even worse if you're listening to the Bruno Mars-Lazy Song which is bad to stuck on your head and you REALLY don't like to do anything for the rest of the day then), felt really bored, didn't have any energy, felt like being a failure and didn't satisfy enough with my exchange year. Although I was just got back from the wonderful trip of East Coast, Spring Break and presenting Indonesia in Relay for Life to help raising money for Cancer with my Girlfriend Clubs from school provided by American Cancer Society. Well if I look at back I should have been busy and grateful for what I've been done. Well yeah recalling the lesson from psychology about Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) maybe it's true that people got depressed during winter but the the suicidal rate is high during spring season because they got energy. Well for me I do...

Okay first of all, I think all of you already know him right? He was the third president of United States of America and famous with his idea to promote justice and freedom among people. Well I know him and respect him but my perspective toward him change until today. He just opened my eyes about how the leader is suppose to be. So you might wondering why on earth in the sudden I just talking about him. I even can't wait to go home, grab my laptop and make my mind controlling my finger dancing on the keyboard because a long the way I just talk loudly to my self how could someone possessed almost all of the criteria of an ideal leader.   Anyway, today I started my volunteering activities again (after such a long break I went off for Suitcase/Backpacking Trip, Spring Break and FCAT testing week) in Bear Creek Elementary School. I usually go after school everyday to volunteer, helping the librarian put the book back to the bookshelf and well after I'm done it gives a lot of o...

Well I'm wondering, why I feel like my passion and my energy are like declining. Somehow I feel like nothing and nobody without support from my family and my close friends back in Indonesia. But then I said to my self, this is the time for me to be grown up, independent and like I said before, stay out of my comfort zone and seeing the reality of life which is shocking for sure. I know I have learned a lot during my stay in here. Psychology really give an insight and answer for some of my questions about the world and specially American. I know that if somebody achieve certain standard then their expectancy come higher and they will always improve it or at least stay in that position. People always look at me and say that they are jealous how bright and lucky I am, or how sometimes I am not grateful of what I already have. True, because I always expect something beyond that, and that always makes me underestimate my self and cannot clearly see my own potential. I am not type of p...

I know I should have been post this story right after I got back. *such a procrastinator. Well I'm just too lazy, quite a bit :p Because I also keep track of my adventure in the book journal, so it's kinda tiring to write it twice. Anyway, me, untari, cenna and arya went on a trip to New York City (NY), Boston (MA), Philadelphia (PA) and Washington (DC) for 9 days (March 19th-27th). We were actually planning it as a backpacking trip (read: patahtulangdanpinggang), want to try feeling a sensation living like a hobo I guess, sleeping in a bus station with the huge backpack, well you might recall amazing race then. Fortunately, Arya's Local Coordinator was kind enough to be our chaperon so everything is lots easier (the waiver for permission slip, arranging the bus transportation and booking the hostels as well). So then we might rename our trip as a Suitcase Trip with the backpacking budget because we eventually carry the suitcase anyway ( I brought my cute carry on pooh sui...