stag·nant (stăg′nənt) adj. 1. Not moving or flowing; motionless. 2. Foul or stale from standing: stagnant ponds. 3. a. Showing little or no sign of activity or advancement; not developing or progressing; inactive: a stagnant economy. b. Lacking vitality or briskness; sluggish or dull: a stagnant mind. If you may take a look of what the tittle means in the dictionary that pretty much describing of what I felt couple of month recently. You might wonder why I always looking for english term or write my blog in english more than in my mother tongue language. I don't know why but I feel more freedom to express my feeling and pull everything out across my head in english, no hierarchy and manner term needed if you get what I mean. Anyway, I feel like an alien both in the society and to myself, I kinda go away from the crowd and pull my self out from the society which I absent in some routine meeting and just go to my dikti research by myself, maybe I to