Whimsical Journey of My Life

Okay first of all, I think all of you already know him right? He was the third president of United States of America and famous with his idea to promote justice and freedom among people. Well I know him and respect him but my perspective toward him change until today. He just opened my eyes about how the leader is suppose to be. So you might wondering why on earth in the sudden I just talking about him. I even can't wait to go home, grab my laptop and make my mind controlling my finger dancing on the keyboard because a long the way I just talk loudly to my self how could someone possessed almost all of the criteria of an ideal leader.   Anyway, today I started my volunteering activities again (after such a long break I went off for Suitcase/Backpacking Trip, Spring Break and FCAT testing week) in Bear Creek Elementary School. I usually go after school everyday to volunteer, helping the librarian put the book back to the bookshelf and well after I'm done it gives a lot of o

Well I'm wondering, why I feel like my passion and my energy are like declining. Somehow I feel like nothing and nobody without support from my family and my close friends back in Indonesia. But then I said to my self, this is the time for me to be grown up, independent and like I said before, stay out of my comfort zone and seeing the reality of life which is shocking for sure. I know I have learned a lot during my stay in here. Psychology really give an insight and answer for some of my questions about the world and specially American. I know that if somebody achieve certain standard then their expectancy come higher and they will always improve it or at least stay in that position. People always look at me and say that they are jealous how bright and lucky I am, or how sometimes I am not grateful of what I already have. True, because I always expect something beyond that, and that always makes me underestimate my self and cannot clearly see my own potential. I am not type of p