Whimsical Journey of My Life

There's a lot of things going on lately that force me to think and think and think and somehow it also make me more sensitive for some reason, like it's hard to control my emotion. Small silly mistakes could made me irritable and that make me felt like I'm the bad guy over here because I always feel like people forgotten me or left me out. It was initially started with my birthday.  I know that I'm not actually such a romantic friend who would always be the initiator to held a surprise party or giving a present when my friend have a birthday, I'm just close enough to someone who always tried to remember hardly my friends birthday date (because I'm not actually the type of person who would make such a fuss on party) but I think just a sincere wishes through social media or if I met them in person if I knew that day is their birthday is enough to warm their heart. (At least for me, that just the least thing I want from my closest friend, just to wish me a v...

Which one do you think more sinful? Just wondering... Commit Murder Having thought to suicide Rape or having sex before marriage Addicted to drug Drunk or consume alcohol Steal/rob/taking something not in your possession Corruption Fighting Nepotism Cheating Disobey your parent Gossiping or talking about someone behind their back What's the biggest impact if you commit one of those sin? Only yourself? Your family? friend? relatives? group of people? community? nation?  I hate to say these as I growing up, but once I become an adult, it feels like you only need to survive in this cruel world and pretend those kind of things doesn't exist even though it is happening right in front of my eyes. As the humanity philosopher said "People are basically good" and only the power of social loafing make them loosing their identity to still exist in that group if I may added.  Well who knows? I'm not saying that I don't commit sin or whatsoever ...

List of People around the world that I have met from: Germany Russia Vietnam Brazil Chilli Argentina Venezuela Peru Turkey Saudi Arabia Malaysia South Africa Thailand Turkmenistan Mongolia Phillipines Bangladesh Pakistan India Nepal Japan South Korea Polland Belgium Netherlands France USA UK Australia New Zealand Egypt Italy Austria Croatia China Taiwan Hong Kong Myanmar Cambodia Armenia Guyana Singapore Iran Bosnia and Herzegovina Ghana Morocco Oman Tunisia Georgia Kazhakstan Kyrgyzstan Ireland

There was one Taiwanese boy once asked me "Is that okay for a Muslim girl to hold hand with a guy?". "It was from last night game, the AMSC Olympics. Oh you didn't join the play?" "Yeah, I was preparing for my presentations so I take a break and prepared"  I have no idea what should I actually answer to that boy, and I said "Shaking hand is okay I think" and he said "Yeah, I know shaking hand is okay, but how about holding hand while we're playing last night?" and I said "Well, it really depends on the person and the intention I guess", then I call another muslim friends from Bangladesh to explain but he wasn't really focus on the question and then we were talking about different topic. Then still with curiosity, I asked my Muslim Malaysian friend about this, which she was also a girl. I like her answer though which kinda bit the same with my answer previously but in a more elaborative way. Interesting righ...

in·se·cure ˌinsəˈkyo͝or/ adjective 1 . (of a person) not confident or assured; uncertain and anxious. "a top model who is notoriously insecure about her looks" synonyms: unconfident ,  uncertain ,  unsure ,  doubtful ,  hesitant ,  self-conscious , unassertive ,  diffident ,  unforthcoming ,  shy ,  timid ,  retiring ,  timorous , inhibited ,  introverted ;  More 2 . (of a thing) not firm or set; unsafe. If I could describe my feeling in a word now, that could be it, to sum up all of my feeling of "anxiousness". For some reason, lately I felt like I've been left behind in term of anything you may say, education, career, finance, love life, or else, merely I just worried about my future prospect. The reason that trigger me to lead so is that lots of graduation picture in my time line, I chat with my old friends over that issue just to say "Congraduat...

I found this on my friend's post.. Exactly, this what answered up my wonder. Should we lowered up our standard? The answer is truly yours.. Walk together in the same path, then you're deserved for each other -NA

It's been a tough week which require a legit physical strength to get through. So to start this adventure I'm aware that when I firstly decided to join nature-lover-organisation-kinda-thing, I would have to get involved more in exploring the nature. Well jadi selama seminggu ini kurang lebih all of my day occupied with activities that demand extra energy. Dari hutan lereng gunung, Susur Sungai, Camp di Pantai, komplit lah menjelajah alam nya sampe komplit juga bikin masuk angin dan mual. "Gak nyangka semester 7 ternyata ga selowong yang kita kira" "Well nad, sibuk itu pilihan kali" "Gw sampe udah kebal, udah ga bisa ngeluh sama marah lagi" Itu sepenggalan thoughts temen2 yang mereka lontarin ke gw, ketika gw terkadang ngeluh dan kita sama2 di hadapin sama berbagai hal di luar ekspektasi kita sih. So dimulai dengan gw mengemban dua amanah jadi Sie acara di kedua event yang emang venue nya di alam gitu (bahkan jadi Koor di sa...

Why does everything have to be crumbling apart after 5 years? Is this just the right time? Would it be my turning point of life? I have no idea how should I carry out this problem, but it just that I always think positively that Allah may be really loved me and this how the almighty want to give me a test so that I can go on to the next level of life.  Suddenly after a really nightmare thought beginning in this year that it turned out to be eventually happened, the thing that I still have some worries deep down inside of me and so do my family. And we should be ready whatever the consequences are. We never know what the mystery of tomorrow will bring us. Well I just merely too sensitive to be predicting all ever to be happened, and it is happening. My suspicion turns out to be all come true and that's make me have a goosebumps why all of my thoughts somehow could turn into reality.  A very great lesson that I learned though, each person would have their own obstac...

So here again I continue my EAMSEP story. On the second week February 9th to 16th), after done with the hospital rotation in Internal Medicine department, We had Tuberculosis discussion in Pub Tunnel. The activities called as "SciCaffe" I think from the name that they want to discuss Science in more fun and creative way in such a Pub or Caffe, well I am not sure though, but what I've just experience kinda surprising because my friend have to delivered his research project presentation about Tuberculosis in the Caffe where the atmosphere wasn't 'scientific' enough, you got my point right? While the Professor who was also gave us some lectures about TB said that it was also his first time to present kinda serious discussion in that kind of place. What I think was ironic was we were discussing about how to keep a healthy lung by staying out of TB but the Caffe were full of smoke in the air because people were trying to destroy their lung by smoking in the '...

So approximately last month, 2nd-16th February 2015, I went to Croatia for an exchange program called Europe Asian Medical Student's Exchange Program (EAMSEP) which is an  Intercontinetal student exchange (Twinning project), organized between AMSA Indonesia (Asian Medical Students' Association) and FOSS MedRi (Fakultetski Odbor Svih Studenata Medicinskog fakulteta u Rijeci) who is a registered member of EMSA (European Medical Student's Association). Unlike the other exchange program which is held by AMSA, the AMSEP (Asian Medical Students' Exchange Program), this one is a bit special because it held between Europe and Asia, so it called EAMSEP and this one with Indonesia is the second EAMSEP after the first one between Malaysia and Lithuania. What also special about this program is that it last for 2 weeks, longer than the regular AMSEP which usually take only for a week. The activities during those two weeks covered   Knowledge, Friendship and Action which is  u n...